Making the most of Societal Pressure.

Female, Brown, Size 12, & Asian
- Living in South Asia 

In bold is how I've chosen to describe myself from how I appear physically to where I'm from.
Why each of those words matter to this post is because it's definition is only the tip of an ice berg.
It is what is excluded from a dictionary definition that I relate to the most. 

Not just me. You too.

Society's definition.

As a Female I am expected to conform to so many things and there are different expectations in different parts of the world. 

Either way if you're female there is a notion of how you are to behave, dress, look, talk and so on - but the point is, it's all to do with what society wants! 

Brown - I feel my skin colour at times has been more of an invisibility cloak - involuntarily. And it's still a colour on people all over the world that is yet to fully blend on the present blank canvas. 

"Size 12 is not fat"

- Meg Cabot.

Societies expectations of what my body should be is beyond absurd!

The following exemplifies this absurdity,
-Utterances from different family friends within a span of one month:

One weekend, "Oh,you've lost so much of weight"
The following weekend, "You look like you've put on since the last time we met"
(Probably 3 years ago because we are not even close also, I didn't even ask for your comments on MY body) 
The next, "You're looking good now that you've slimmed down" 

BUT you know the BEST part on all these occasions my SIZE 12 jeans still fitted fine! -_-

Asian - Because I am 22 years old, living with my parents & it's okay! (That's the quirky way of looking at things)

The other would be, "You're not to live with the opposite sex until you're married" - lol. 

Belonging to a South Asian country,
society's expectations have been the strings to my body I didn't even know were attached.
It took one string to snap for me to realize - there is more than one tune I could dance to.
And you can break out of this monotonous tune no matter what body your soul lives in.

So I made the decision to play with societal pressure - I told myself that I am going to use it for change, but starting with me.
So as small step I have started an Instagram account to log my journey towards attaining my goals by recording the steps I will be taking and its progress.
(Mostly because I have this psychological thing that if I have announced it the public, I have to stick by it - that there maybe at least one person curious too know if I follow through - there doesn't have to be, but the existence of a pressurizing society as a Brown, Size 12, Asian Female is good enough)

I do not know how all of this is going to turn out -
but one thing I know for sure is I am going to embrace my body's positioning on Earth & hopefully make the most of it.